Joan Baez and the Crewcut

     Hanging out at the dome we heard another car graveling its way toward us. This time it had a very unlikely couple: a young, long haired, kid with a middle-aged dude in a crew cut looking like a Nark or FBI. They stopped their rent-a-car at the dome and introduced themselves. We asked the kid about their situation and he told me that the guy was okay and that he’d rented the car in LA but just wanted to get away. I was suspicious about him but, what the hell, all kinds of folks ended up at Morningstar.

     The two pitched a little dome tent in front of the pueblo. A few days later a party of some sort was going on. I think it was a special occasion whereby we had been roasting a kid goat for it. There was plenty of wine and other stuff and this crew-cut dude got way outa hand. He was hitting on a dark haired woman and carrying on and I was also drunk and in no mood to put up with his antics… we almost went at it. Somehow we didn’t… I think it was Byron who broke us up. I was crushed out of shame for letting this guy evoke my old violent behavior. I made the connection with wine but felt powerless as far as doing anything about it. I felt that my sojourn at Morningstar was coming to an end and a renewed feeling of hopelessness had begun to seep into my conscience.

     The dark haired woman seemed oddly familiar. She comforted me after I apologized profusely and had been crying on her shoulder about my sudden outburst of violence. She assured me that it was okay what I'd done and that she thought I was a saint for doing so. As I was attracted to her and fed on her compassion, my interest perked up. She must have sensed my awakened libido so she told me she was married to a guy who was in prison for dodging the draft and that she was celibate until he would be released.. His name just happened to be David. I always wondered if it was… hmmm … naw… a coincidence? Taking advantage of my newly ordained sainthood and, being drunk and horny, I hit on her pretty heavy. However, my sainthood was disregarded and she rejected my advances. I will always wonder whether or not her name was Joan... as in Joan Baez. Really, had I been ordained a saint and rejected by Joan Baez?!!!

     The next day some of us, along with Magic Mary, decided we needed some pot and no one had any. Magic Mary said she knew someone in Ranch De Taos who had some but we needed transportation. Crewcut was very hungover but handed the keys of his rent-a-car to a go-getter named Dennis… one of the new guys staying at the kiva. So, four or five of us headed into town with Magic Mary and, as we passed through Taos, a cruiser got behind us and followed us all the way through town. We were finally pulled over in front of a bar. As Magic Mary was awaiting trial for the previous bust she wanted nothing to do with these cops. She was not so eager to be nailed for some minor offense. We had no idea how legit this rent-a-car was and had no idea who this Crewcut was. Anticipating the worst and, in the confusion of what was going on with some of us distracting and clowning with the cops, she asked to be excused to use the women’s room in the bar. I think it was Linda who was with us and she went to the restroom with Mary. She came back alone after about fifteen minutes. Mary had slipped out the back door but the cops seemed to be unconcerned about where she went or who she was. They were focused on the car. Dennis told them about the guy on the mesa and flat out asked the patrolman whether Crewcut was a Nark or something. It was kind of funny when I think back on it.

     After the cop checked on Dennis’ driver’s license, we were put in two squad cars to follow Dennis in the rent-a-car to the mesa. The cops just wanted to talk to the Crewcut to see if the car was rented by him. I suspected that there was more to it than that… was he an agent? Was he sent up to reconnoiter and find out what was going on up there? These things were common at Morningstar in California. Folks up on the mesa who’d come from there had endured worse and had the attitude… “let them check on us all they want.”

     We told the cops that they had to stay with their cars in the parking lot and that we would retrieve Crewcut for them. They obliged, much to my surprise. Regardless, once Crewcut was awakened from his hangover and checked out by the cops, they departed. Crewcut left soon after and the Kid stayed. I’ll never know exactly what that business was all about but I have my ideas.

    Dennis was an unusual character that I will have much more to do with soon.

The Tobacco Incident

     Shep was an interesting character. He had evidently been a speed freak before coming to Morningstar… his brain completely fried. At the oddest times he shouted out, “I’ll do the fixing, Jude!” It was like he had Tourette's syndrome. Other than his usual silence he was a friendly enough guy and didn’t stray too much from company. I just wondered what hell he had been through and hoped he could come out of it. I’m not sure where he came from or very much about him at all, but before he hooked up with Candy, he wandered around the mesa saying nothing much to anyone. He was much more communicative after that tryst.

    Other folks had their own quirks. One guy, who had a hogan on the other side of the mesa called himself “Strider” after a character from the Tolkien Trilogy. Once, right after a tremendous thunderstorm had passed over the mesa, he came dashing across to the A-frame exclaiming that he’d seen a UFO. I had watched the same thunderstorm and marveled over its power and beauty but had seen no such thing. But, like everyone else, I humored him to some degree but did not discount it as an authentic observation.

    At one point a pair of guys… brothers from the Dakotas or Nebraska, had shown up and planted an umbrella tent near the latrine and parking lot. They had been dodging the draft and claimed to be evading the FBI… cut off from their family. They had all the camp gear needed for such an adventure: Coleman lantern; air mattresses; Coleman stove; their tent was a luxury palace compared to the primitive conditions some of us had. I spent some time with them out of curiosity and the fact that their camp was between the goat pasture and the pueblo. They told me about how their dad disowned them and before that had confessed that when he saw hippies hitchhiking he had to resist the temptation to swerve his car to run them down. After hearing that, whenever I hitchhiked  I paid more attention to approaching vehicles.

    Then there was a woman everyone called Magic Mary. Magic Mary lived in an adobe at the side of the highway on the outskirts of Taos. She was a forty-something artist who hosted a celebration of her birthday. Almost every one, including freeloaders like me, had convened at her place. There was plenty of Red Mountain and acid around for all of us. It was an all day and all-night affair that was accompanied by musicians at times and a stereo with a collection of record albums playing full blast otherwise. I’m not even sure whether or not all of us were welcome when I think back on it.

    Magic Mary had been recently busted... a U-Haul truck loaded with bails of marijuana… she, and her husband had been arraigned and she was out on bail awaiting trial. He was still locked up. This might have been a source of tension but it only showed itself once that I can recall. There were several of us who had dropped a considerable amount of acid and were sitting in a room tripping to the stereo when a man came into the room sniffing and gesturing… “Does anyone smell gas?” sniffing some more… “No kidding, I smell gas.”

     The power of suggestion maybe… we were all tripping… some agreed, “Yes, I smell gas!” and hastily left the room… others just sat on the floor and couch sniffing… agreeing and disagreeing… what was this guy up to? I sniffed, smelling nothing but the smell of pot everywhere… then that smell turned to the odor of gas… then back to pot… what was it? I was about to get off my ass and leave the room just in case when someone lit a match, “Look we would all be dead now if it was gas!” he declared.

    Any time I was offered a hit of acid, I took it. I’m not sure now how many I dropped but it was over a dozen… plus what was already in the Red Mountain. I was so very fucked up. I had a pouch of tobacco that one of the women hit me up to roll one. It just happened that I had previously insulted her a few days before back at the dome… I thought it to be nothing and, truthfully, I thought I was just making a joke… at least I thought it was funny. I don’t remember the joke at all but I do remember that I had used the "C" word. She had rightfully taken offense at whatever I said and harbored such resentment that she refused to return the pouch and papers after she rolled one. Tripping my brains out, I decided that I had been wrong but that she would have to give me my tobacco back. We hounded each other for what seemed like hours and, only after a complete act of contrition on my part, did she return the pouch… albeit, half gone. I have never made an off color joke demeaning women since then and have a hard time even writing the “C” word to this day. These things seem trivial but made a hell of an impression on my acid drenched brain.

     The party at Magic Mary’s broke up long after I had left. Arroyo Hondo is eleven miles north of Taos but I considered walking just to get out of the madness in there or in my head... which is which! Someone offered me a ride on the back of a flat bed truck and I rolled around there all the way to the mesa. I know I had to be pretty damned blasted from all the Red Mountain spiked with acid but to tell the truth I don’t think I got near as high on all of that as I did from the few bites off  peyote buttons previous to that… something about alcohol and LSD… just plain don’t mix. Wine simply flattens the... takes the edge off acid and what is the use in that?

The Eyes of Hoover

The Easter Peyote Ceremony and Vision Quest impacted me in ways that were not at all mysterious, given the circumstances. However, much of what occurred, the coincidences and serendipity of several of the encounters, still give me cause to wonder.  After that sometimes I hung out down at the Dome with the Georgia Peaches and Stanley. This had more to do with it being warm and a good place to shoot the shit and relax than curiosity about the novelty of the threesome they had goin’ on. There were also projects on the mesa that I involved myself in. The community got together to put up a sturdy chicken coup. The bobcats, coyotes, and mountain lions had to be kept away from the chickens and some control over the laying hens had to be established. As in everything else the leadership was more or less invisible… or barely visible.

     Sound carried so well that any vehicle coming up towards us on the gravel road could be heard far in advance from the mesa and even down in the draw where the dome was on the road below. On one such afternoon the gravelling of tires alerted the four of us as we stood by the road to see who it might be. A young paranoid speed freak named Shep had been watching from a point on the mesa and came running down to us a few minutes ahead of the car warning that it was a sedan like kind the Feds use. I wasn’t sure what we were supposed to do about it if it were the Feds. Shep dashed up to the mesa and left us wondering. Stan and the girls went inside the Dome but I stayed out front just to see. The sedan pulled off the road in front of the Dome. Two, crew-cut-six-foot-plus-suites in their thirties got out of the sedan. I couldn’t help but notice the spit-shine on their shoes getting dusty. One of them held a binder and approached while the other flashed a badge from his wallet.

     “FBI: Do you live here?” The man with the badge asked the obvious. I wanted to say no but thought better of it.

     Stan opened the door enough to see what was going on but was not going to let them in the Dome.

     “I live here… what do you want?”

     “We just need you to check out some pictures and tell us whether you’ve seen any of these people here.” The agent with the binder said it in such a way that I could see he wasn’t asking for cooperation, he was ordering it.

     Stan was going to close the door right then and there but I answered first, “Sure, won’t hurt anything.” I had caught a glimpse of some of the pictures and those pictures were like high school year-book pictures. I knew I could honestly say I hadn’t seen any of these folks because this was a collection of clean-cut suburban white boys and girls in letter jackets and glee club sweaters: a world apart from anyone now on the mesa.

     The agent paused on each page as I looked at the pictures, hoping not to recognize anyone. As the pages were flipped I did recognize one girl who had arrived only a few days before. I think she called herself Candy. Under her photo was her real name and birthday... 1957! She had paired up with Shep, coincidently, and I knew she was very young. This birthday put her at around thirteen. Shep was only about fifteen or sixteen himself… but the girl was … well, jail-bait. When I first saw her at the kiva I was sure she was very young… but thirteen! I did have mixed feelings about it. So many run-away kids were on the streets in those days that a thirteen year old girl with a young kid hardly turned a head.

     The agent caught me hesitating at her picture and I knew it. I would have to bluff my way out of it if I was going to trip-up this guy. I wished I could get to Shep to warn him but decided to simply shrug my shoulders, “Naw, nothing here… haven’t seen any of ‘em.”

     “Are you sure, now?” The agent wasn’t buying it. “You know it is a federal crime of perjury to obstruct a federal investigation. Any statement you make is subject to Federal Law.”

     That did it, “You know, none of these kids look anything like these picture now. If I were looking straight at someone I grew up with I couldn’t recognize them.” I took a deep breath and made like I knew what I was talking about; “Now, this is private property and you are wearing out your welcome… good-bye, sir.”
  
    I was a little surprised when the Feds turned their sedan around and went the other way. I was expecting them to put me in cuffs and plow further onto the property. I took the same shortcut to the top of the mesa that Shep had taken before the Feds arrived.

    I found Shep and Candy in front of the Kiva and warned them that the FBI had Candy’s picture in their folder. Shep then told me that her dad is the chief of police in her home town back in Florida. Candy couldn’t pass herself off as eighteen so they stayed out of sight from then on. I wished them well but, when I think of it now, I wonder about all the kids who’d left their homes… their mothers and fathers… brothers and sisters… who had escaped to the streets. Though she was relatively safe at Morningstar, the streets were pretty vicious for anyone that young. I don’t know how the others felt about it but I still harbor some guilt that I helped to cover for her and Shep. I didn’t want to see him go to some juvenile joint and I didn’t want to see her returned to what could have been an abusive home. Who knows now what I could have done. The times were very different back in those days and it never occurred to me then… what? I still don’t know.

Lion's Den

There are times I have taken drugs whereby what actually happened is clouded, subverted and twisted by imagination or hallucination… sometimes it is merely an innocent lie… an exaggeration for the sake of telling a good story.  I have told this one so many times in bars, around campfires and to friends in confidence that I don’t truthfully know what happened. I found myself across a draw with a rifle in my arms… I don’t remember how I got the rifle or from whom; but there it was and where I was I made out a figure of the cat between some rocks… I watched and waited. Principally, it was to see whether what I saw was real. After all, the ground was still vibrating and the trees still had auras. I thought I saw a cub falling out from between the rocks and a large paw pulling it back. As suddenly as the cub was pulled back the lion put its face out in plain sight. I drew a bead on it but the idea that she had a cub… or maybe two… behind those rocks let my finger on the trigger slip back down with my grip on the hilt of the rifle.

     It was mid-day before I took my leave without taking a shot. Did I even have a rifle? Was there ever a cat? I can’t say for sure… too many brain cells gone. I never… ever… never blacked out on psychedelic drugs before or since but I am certain I took that hike and vividly remember details that seem too real to be mere peyote induced hallucinations. It confuses me that I did so on such a monumental trek. I do remember, however, jumping boulders and letting one foot fall in front of the other in a jog down hill… stopping and resting and imagining seeing the cat on the opposite ridge as though she was escorting me away from her lair. I wasn’t running to escape… it was just the easiest and fastest way to get downhill… let gravity take the legs swinging like pendulums during the daytime and hunching over leaning slightly forward letting the arms drop down to feel the way at night.

     I arrived at the mesa at sunset… smoke from evening chimneys rising over the pueblo and the sound of meals being prepared greeted my senses as I gave Charlie goat a nod as if to apologize for not avenging the kid that had been taken. Going back to the A-frame I lay that night and dreamed… was it all a dream? Had I actually gone? Dopes it matter? What was real was that I had my vision and that vision of the cat stays with me today. It was a vision of a protector spirit… the cat Kachina… or something like that. After I would eventually leave Morningstar I would need all the protection I could get.

     The days that followed were a distraction and I soon felt that it was time to move on. I was able to breathe in the experience of the vision quest at my A-frame in the goat pasture. The rest of the time I was there we never lost another kid to mama cat. It was as though some sort of cosmic agreement had been made between us on that spring day in the canyon. Some people would say that it was just a coincidence but I felt that I knew better. I drew pictures with lines in the dirt near my fire pit of the cat and the two cubs. I filled in the lines in with different colored soil and ashes and offered up a prayer. I thought about it after that as time passed, and even though felt a bit embarrassed at the superstition; I could never shake the impression that a special bond had been formed with that cat in particular, but with the spirit of cats in general. Years later, when I see a cat; whether it is a mountain lion, a house cat, or a tiger, I sense a bond. I came to understand this was a bond with a form of spirit-guide: like the ones spoken of by shaman and medicine men or healers almost universally. It was most certainly the high point of my stay at Morningstar.

    Something else had happened to me on this quest. I wasn’t compelled to tell anyone about it. Part of the way out into the wilderness I had taken note of all the wonders I had experienced and couldn’t wait to get back to civilization to tell someone about it all. There was a point where I had merged so totally with everything around me… that I was in it so deeply… there just wasn’t any way to describe it with words. Once I did want to tell someone I went to someone… maybe I think, Byron… and sat with him an hour. I couldn’t say much of anything. I would start, “Uh… yes. Trees breathe… I saw them.” And Byron would simply nod in agreement: he’d already been there.

     “I was there breathing with them.”

Kachina/Cat-Cheena

There was enough peyote after the meeting for more than a few buttons to be dispersed to anyone who wanted them. I found this to be an opportunity to take what some of the indigenous people call “a spirit or vision quest”. A mountain lion had taken one of the kid goats from the herd and that gave me good reason to find the cat and to see what I could do about its intrusion onto the mesa. I wasn’t sure what it was that I would do about it if I found the goat… or the lion… but it was a chance to find out something about myself. I started out with a pouch of two small buttons and nothing else to eat. I had taken a bite or two before heading out so I was already high. This trio of nourishment would take me up the Arroyo Hondo… past the ranchos, beyond… upward and branching off, up the sides of steep draws and slopes.

     I saw some fresh stool, and a big cat track here or there that seemed magnified by the peyote. I sat for a spell and ate one of the buttons in my bag. Rested and with renewed vigor I arose and stripped off my boots to let my bare feet touch the ground. I stashed my boots behind some rock where I could find them. My clothes were a burden too so I stripped them off and left a marker by the creek below …. the branches of the piñón, juniper and prickly pear vibrated with an aura… the ground under my bare feet… the rocks even… made for a cushion and seemed, how can I say it? friendly? Yes, a friend to my feet.

     Whoa, how can it be? I found cat tracks in a shady spot where the snow hadn’t melted… going up from there and through some brush. It was more out of curiosity than anything else that kept me going… kept me going until nightfall. Wondering about my clothes I sat on a rock thinking… what was I thinking? I’d heard of these monks going high into the Himalayas wearing only a diaper… why couldn’t I? The stars in the moonless night spread out over me… they didn’t look cold or distant. I sat in the lotus position as the hours passed. I would start to shiver but then a warmth would come over me. My thoughts slowed and I saw in the sky… imagined… hallucinated… dreamt of  a cat standing and dancing in a circle above me. She was dressed like one of the kachina dolls I’d seen with paws from under the skirt pounding out a rhythm… the pounding was my heart but it was beyond my heart…and then it stopped… gradually stopped… the cat turned and the night sky stars shone through the garments where the beads had been and the cat vanished… it was Pleiades. I was thrilled… I am having a vision… the reward of the vision quest like I’d heard of!


     The cat then appeared out of nowhere… it wasn’t a hallucination… she crossed over and beyond by twilight silhouetted against the sky on the ridge above me. What was I going to do? Was she stalking me? Was it just a coincidence? The words of one of the folks by the fire back at the parking lot, Red, was known to say: “There ain’t no coincidences… everything happens for a reason and it don’t gotta be explained by mystical mumbo-jumbo: God is in charge here.”

     The cat stopped… turned to glare in my direction. I glanced down for a rock to toss or stick to defend myself with and, when I looked back up, the cat was gone. Was it a threatening glower or was she telling me to follow her? Was she telling me to stop… go back to my little goat pasture and wait for the next time. I figured it to be a taunt…. “Come if you dare or go back!” I rushed up the ridge hoping to catch sight of her. The Kachina image still burned into my consciousness… “Go… go see… go look for yourself at where I am and what I do.”

     “Yes,” I answered out loud… “I will see for myself.”

     The morning light grew bright in the sky above me as the ground cleared a way for my feet.

The Sacred Order

The Georgia peach had taken Stan that night down to the dome by the road in the arroyo leading up the hill to the mesa. It was there that Stan found the Georgia peach had a sister who’d stopped by the dome to see a friend. The friend that lived in the dome was someone I hadn’t met. He wasn’t the one who'd built the dome: he was just living there after the original builder had moved on.  It was a beautiful building made in the manner of the domes in Drop City out of Trinidad Colorado. It was heated by a converted fifty gallon drum stove like all the others. However, the heat went directly up to the loft where a giant sized mattress could accommodate several people but was of no comfort to those shivering on the couches below.

     It turned out that Stan had it made from there on because the guy the Georgia peach sister was visiting moved on after the short visit and poor ole Stan had to meet the needs of two young women. He was young enough though so he could keep up. However, it isn’t like it was a pornographic dream come true for Stan. It was a natural situation whereby the three got along in and out of bed. These things happened back then because people were earnestly seeking out alternative relationships and, for the first time after the Eisenhower, “Leave it to Beaver”, era the door was open.

     Sunflower left the next morning back to Mordar..., L.A., in the VW with her two other friends. My heart wasn’t exactly broken but I felt as though she would be my only chance to stay at Morningstar. I did not want to stay; no matter how much I loved the people and the place, if I was not going to have a woman at my side to help each other like the couples I admired from my squat in the goat pasture. I wanted to have children, o build perhaps a hogan of my own and to become settled. I longed for the relative stability of a natural New Mexico country hearth. I thought I had meandered around the urban drug scene enough and had found a slice of heaven. I would find out later that my wandering had only begun. I wasn’t at all ready for such a mate or a home; I had far too many demons to expel before a partner or home was for me to have and hold. Anything more than a few blissful nights at a time would be all I would have to hold onto hope for almost a half-decade.

     There were the children… I have often thought of the children raised on the mesa in the very rough back-to-the land communes like Morningstar. I remember more of the children than I do some of the adults because there were several and they were all over the place… very precocious and into everyone’s business much to the delight of anyone with a heart. I needed not to worry however, they would grow up into well adjusted adults as far as I knew. A three year-old Andre was one… Siddhartha was another… and a few I saw all the time but don’t know much more at this time. Those were the boys and I don’t remember the any of the little girls for some reason… they certainly had to be there. Any names I could come up with now wouldn’t be from my memory as much as from what I could glean from some of the histories and tales told by Pam Hanna (Read) of her midwifing in various posts and blogs: i.e., Morningstar Scrapbook web site and from Iris Keltz (Scrapbook of a Taos Hippy).

     One incident seared Andre’s name in my consciousness when somebody hanging out in the Kiva decided it would be a good idea to give Andre a hit of acid. There were some very misguided and sick folks back then who saw no harm in turning anyone on to acid whenever the urge struck them. I don’t know who did it but I did hear about it as soon as Andre’s mom, Beatrice, found Andre acting strange. These mothers were anything but irresponsible and Beatrice went mama-bear ballistic. No one copped to it but the whole Kiva was to find them selves facing the ire of Beatrice. The women of the pueblo took turns helping Andre through his experience and he seemed to be perfectly fine afterwards but everyone got the point: Don’t even fuck with the kids!


   

Easy Rider don't Ride Too Far

     The ceremony ended with the ashes of the fire being spread out. The way the sticks had been arranged had made a Thunderbird of the mound called “The Road” that spread like wings from above the fire pit. I stepped out of the teepee after the ashes were dispersed and the closing prayers to be greeted by the morning sunrise; drums within what seemed to be the cells of my body were still reverberating in a hum. The ground under my bare feet felt spongy and soft. The tables were set with plates of roasted honeyed blue cornmeal and some other tid-bits that I don’t exactly recall. The women, who didn’t attend the meeting, were serving and they all had an aura of love that is hard to explain. It isn’t so much that I felt love… the earth was love and love was more than kindness. It was a vibration I could actually see… a note I could hear in the low hum of the earth.  The beauty of everything and everyone on the glimmering mesa wasn’t obtrusive but was as gentle as a mild breeze… it was as a bow across the strings of a viola… the viola of the earth.

     My feet took me back to the goat pasture… at that time the Bible thumper was harassing the women serving with scripture. I watched him and then called him over the gate of the fence. Charlie goat greeted him with a push on his hand when he entered. I warned him that he was getting himself committed if he shoved back. Scratch his chin and pat his side but, beware, don’t push back his head or you may regret it. The thumper was not to be told what to do by any heathen so he shoved back. By the time he got out the gate Charlie’s intent to put his butt over the fence with a last head butt halfway succeeded. So much for curses, I laughed in a deep and satisfying guffaw that rumbled so I feared I might explode.

     On another day, Beatrice’s Afro-mate (I can’t remember his name) and, three year old André’s father, invited everyone to the Kiva for a group meditation. Most of us hadn’t tried it since the meditation at New Buffalo. We sat around the tiers of the Kiva… some could sit in the Lotus position and knew quite well how to meditate but most were like me. He was a great instructor as he took us through the ropes in a guided meditation explaining how the word, “Om”, works. What I remember most about his instruction was the advice that “Om” is a word that needs no embellishment. Just let the word come from the breath he advised. The breath should rise from below the lungs… from the gut, if you will. Let the “Om” out from there and let the word regulate your breath… something like that. I truly don’t remember much more but that much stuck with me. I remember this much of what he taught when I now meditate some forty years later.

     Stan was a cynic about all this spiritual jive, especially the claim that meditation was a high above drugs. We talked about it afterwards in the A-frame. Stan was a few years younger than me but he was far more honest about his feelings and so much more spontaneous about acting on them. He brought up the subject of women and the fact that he had heard a lot about free love but had not had any sex since leaving Detroit. We talked about how it wasn’t that much different from the way it was with straight culture. Women and men seem to gravitate towards each other for qualities of strength, security and so on… is the man smart enough and able enough to provide protection and care for their children? I noted that Charlie goat has quite a harem because he is able to do just that and I’m sure we laughed about it.

     Stan then asked whether or not these chants would be of any avail along the lines of fixing us up with a woman. It was then that we started chanting; “Pussy… Pussy… Pussy…” We must have repeated “Pussy” a hundred before we stopped. We blew out the kerosene lamp when Stan asked in the dark, “Do you see any women?”

     “No, Stan, I think it might take some patience."

     The very next day a VW van pulled up into the parking lot where two women and a couple of men unloaded from it. I didn’t think much about it but the idea of the chant the night before stuck in my head. Later that day I heard music and smelled pot coming from the room with a door facing the Kiva. I’m not sure but I think it was the room of a guy named David. Stan and I stopped in to see what was going on. A frizzy-haired dark skin beauty was playing a twelve string guitar. She smiled at me directly while she played. The other women with her, whose name I can't recall was from Georgia, and sang along in a sweet Georgia peach accent most obviously eyeing Stan. The one playing the guitar stopped playing and introduced herself to me as Sunflower. Sunflower then asked me where she and her friend could bathe because they had been on the road a few days and longed for some water. I told them about the Stage Coach hot springs and how far it was but she declined that idea asking if there was anything closer. I then mentioned the pond but that the ice was barely thawed from winter. She said that she didn’t mind if it was closer and asked if I could be their guide.

     Well, my answer took no hesitation. I was more than willing and we headed out directly… she and her friend but left her guitar and the other two guys at the room. We hiked over the mesa and down to the pond stripping off our clothes. My eyes feasted on the bodies of the gorgeous nymphs along our side. Stan and the women were dipping their feet in the water to test it when I decided to show some bravado and dove in over their heads with a huge splash. I have to admit that the icy water was a shock I could hardly bear and would normally leap immediately out of but I stayed in it to show off yelling above my shivers, “Its fine…, th…th… the wa… water’s fine!”

     The high altitude of New Mexico held snow on the south slopes in the shade but, if you were out of the wind, you could sunbathe. The four of us sunned after everyone got wet and played around in the freezing water at least long enough to clean ourselves. Yes, we sunned on towels and I held Sunflower close allowing the goose bumps to melt away with the passion of chilled bodies warm themselves in love making that went higher than a mere roll in the hay… or should I say, grit of the earthen dam. I fell for Sunflower right then and there. We had been pretty unabashed about getting it on with each other as was Stan with his woman.

     Stan stayed with his squeeze down at the dome and Sunflower spent the night with me in the A-frame. It was a great night for me as we made love and talked. I then spoke of Easy Rider and how my character was like Wyatt’s and Stan’s was more like Billy’s. At least, that was how I saw myself…, as more serious and looking for something while Stan just seemed to be just going along for the ride. She seemed to agree and actually said something like, “I saw that when you came in the door today.”

     Woah, I thought, I got this girl charmed. She finally told me that she needed to sleep as she would be heading out back to Los Angeles in the morning. Then I threw in something I’d read about Easy Rider and that how Peter Fonda’s character, Wyatt’ had been given an option as Captain America to stop at New Buffalo… get right with the earth but instead he chose hit the road to his destiny as America was doing and all those implications. She agreed with that too and that is when I made the proposal, “Why don’t you stay here with me. We would work well together, I can’t make it here without a woman and your arrival was no mere chance.” I said that earnestly in reference to the chant the night before.

     Curling up to me she said, “You seemed to have a mystical power that commanded the room when I saw you today George. I can’t stay; I have a boutique to run back on Sunset and responsibilities.” Then, after she kissed me full-on, added, “Don’t allow your fantasies of who I am to you sap you of that power… you are going to need all you have.”She moaned, "Easy Rider, this is far enough for us to ride for now, eh?"

     Sadly, I knew she was right but I had no idea what she meant… a premonition of sorts I believe.